Rough Week

I have alot on my mind lately that it is really hard to be still.  The thoughts just swirl around like a Ferris wheel at an amusement park.  It has been eight days since I heard the news that my dear friends mom had a brain tumor.  You never want to hear those words for anyone you love.  God, you never want anyone to hear those words.  Tomorrow will be a week that Amy's mom went in for surgery and we found out that it was the "C" word.  I HATE that word.  I am sure you all know what I am talking about so I do not have to spell it out.  Sorry that I am using such a harsh word as HATE but it is appropriate.   When I found out that it was "C" word and that it was already stage 4 my heart just ached.  I felt so helpless and so angry that I could not make things better for my friend.  So many emotions came over me that I just was numb.  I have to be strong I just kept telling myself, I have to be strong for Amy.  Yesterday was the first day I saw her since I got the news.  Yesterday is the first time we spoke.  We have been keeping in touch only by texts and messaging so that we could not hear the sadness and fear in our voices.  It was so good to see her and to see her mom.  It was so good to talk with her.  It is funny, she said to me" I am not hugging you because I will cry".   It was so hard not to just hug her and tell her how much I love her and that I am here for her.  I am sure she already knew that so it was OK. 

Rough Week

It has been the real rough week for me but I have kept it to myself.  I have been the one to say it is going to be OK and that her mom will fight this battle and win.  She will win this battle because she has already come so far and is no willing to let this "C" beat her.  I know and she knows it.  Amy's mom is a strong women and nothing will get in her way.

It has been a real rough week for me but I have kept it to myself.  I have been the one to send the prayers and virtual hugs.  I have sent the words of hope and encouragement.  I just need to remind myself that these things happen and there are no reasons for it.  Good people get sick.  Nobody can tell me why not even God. 

It has been a real rough week for me but I have kept it to myself.  I really am OK.   I know that  Lorene will be OK.  Amy will be OK and her family will be OK.  

In times like these I count my blessings and I am grateful for what the world has blessed me with.
Are you??

Love is in the air

February has arrived!!!  That means it is time for us to shower those we love with flowers, candy and cards.  It is funny to think just about six years ago I hated this time of year.  I mean I would dread having to go into a store because I knew that I would be submerged into the red and pink decor.  It would reminded how I was not going to be celebrating in the love fest.  How things have changed.  I can say that I am officially a fan of Valentines day.  It took many years but six years ago I met the man who would change my heart forever.  This year will be our first Valentines day as a married couple and I could not ask for anything better than that.  I would like to share with you how my heart has changed.  This is for Joseph....I love you!!

What is love??

Love is when my heart skips a beat each time he enters the room

Love is the laughter 

Love is knowing that I can trust him with all your secrets

Love is the tears we share when life has given more than we think we can handle

Love is hugs and kisses

Love is knowing he will always be there

Love is saying " I love you" as I fall asleep

Love is holding hands

Love is the feeling I get each time he calls from work to say he misses me

Love is the gentle way he holds me in his arms

Love is what we have together forever and always